The loss
I didn’t think that it will affect me so much. Normally I would have felt angry with myself for a while and then simply let it go. After all it’s only a material possession.
This time, the sadness and anger I felt at losing something material is something new even to me.
I wanted to kick myself for leaving it on my lap and not keeping it back in my bag immediately after use. I wanted to slap myself for not checking the seats of the cab after alighting (and I normally do this! the irony)
I was so angry with myself I wanted to slap myself repeatedly.
And then, the sadness. I never thought I would cry over the loss of a phone. It’s not the phone per se as I have had gorgeous phones like the LG shine, Nokia Sirocco etc. Like I said, it’s only a possession and I don’t get too attached to materialism. But this time, it’s Big’s Christmas gift to me. He had painstakingly took the time, effort and hard earned money to get the phone from his friend in the States, ship it over, collect it from Customs (after it got detained), paid extra GST, ran here and there for the paperwork and presented the phone to me on a platter and his IDIOT girlfriend goes and LOSE IT.
You know what the worst thing is? When I told him that I lost the iphone, he was so calm about it and helped me to call the cab company. He did not even scold me. He was not even angry or unhappy with me, not one bit. In fact, he comforted me and told me not to be sad, he will get me another.
I feel like the lousiest girlfriend in the entire universe.
STUPID, STUPID, STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
At times like these, the wise folk would say “even though the gift is no longer with you, the effort and love he had gotten you the gift with will always be there”.
Focus not on the tangible, and be glad that the man is still there to give you many more wonderfully planned surprises.
*hugs*
I’m so sorry Rach
I’m sure you didn’t want this to happen. *pat*
I know how you feel… like, if he was angry with you you wouldn’t feel so guilty right? He’s a reasonable man, and knows that you didn’t want that too… and that you’re probably upset as well.
This one is a keeper. =)
he so sweet! I would’ve never gotten over the guilt too.
Know what you mean. You are more upset because of your bf’s effort than anything else. When my bf lost the GPA I got him for his last birthday, his reaction was like yours now BUT you know what? The giver loves the receiver so much that he/she doesn’t mind one bit! =)
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