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My First Hooha in 2008

18 January 2008 13 Comments

I started 2008 thinking it would be another challenging year with my “Rachel can do it” boss and even set my mind towards conquering his son’s ginormous Bar Mitzvah. In fact, the most exhausting tasks of gathering all the Jewish and non Jewish people from all over the world, getting their mobile numbers, email addresses and land addresses, smsing them, emailing them compiling replies, gathering different travel routes, flight times, fares, upgrades, hotel booking with the agent, booking all the air tickets and doing upgrades had all been done. I have only to follow through each timeline as we move along.

But every day while I experience a sense of victory and achievement at work, I return home mentally and physically exhausted and drained. My head pounding and my mind unable to focus, I could not even have the energy to 1. blog 2. talk to my girls 3. relax completely 4. lubba lubba with Big.

God is trying to drum some sense into my thick skull I think. The final clincher is when I could not, for the hell of me, get out of bed yesterday morning. My whole body felt as if a sledgehammer had merrily nested itself in the small of my back and my head had been stuffed with steel wool. My body only felt less tension and pain after my virgin hatha yoga lesson on Tuesday night.

And so.

I have tendered my resignation on Wednesday morning.

I have mused, angst-ed, mulled over it and I felt very torn. On one hand, my boss treats me very well. He never ever yells at me even though he has the tendency of chewing other people out. Nice dressing allowance, fabulous pay, fun industry, insider fashion shows, insider sales (as you can see, I am very shallow ) and the lot. On the other hand, my health is slowly but surely giving out. After a lengthy talk with Shelly and Big and getting lots of encouragement from them, I have decided to be a taitai (wannabe) for now. No turning back now, I have already spoken to Boss about it.

That is another story. I felt so sad, so reluctant, so bad when I spoke to him about it. He came into my room in the morning and the first time he asked was not about his schedule or about work but, how was my back. I gathered all my willpower to tell him that I needed to have a talk with him about it. And spilled the news to him that I have decided to leave.

He looked rather sad and told me that he really enjoyed working with me and that good PAs are hard to come by.

I think I will have a tough time working off the notice period. Sigh.

13 Comments »

DK said:

All the best.

# 18 January 2008 at 4:23 pm

starm|st said:

oh dear…
i had a hard time spilling my news to my boss last wed too.. :/ i keep telling myself look forward, not back. so, look forward, not back. do take care, rach.. *hugs*

# 18 January 2008 at 4:50 pm

Shelly said:

*hugs* It’s all for the greater good.

I am very very proud of you for taking the first step.

# 18 January 2008 at 5:12 pm

fitti said:

Hugs, If one has to literally drags him/herself out of bed to go to work with tons of worries and thoughts in the mind, it’s probably time to leave. Take some time to tune your body back (wei, if you want another baby in the future then you must take care of your back now…) and once you feel well enough, I’m sure you can achieve even more than you have in your present job. I intend to rely on you to bring some nice chic clothes for me next time when the online store thingy starts wor…=)

# 18 January 2008 at 10:37 pm

Au said:

I feel very proud of you, and very happy for you that you’ve made this decision, finally.

I’ve told my sis (the one who will become a homemaker come Feb 08 to better bond with and to nurture d kids!) about your decision and she’s very happy for you too.

Strangers as we may be, it’s weird that somehow we feel ‘connected’ with you.

Welcome to taitai-dom!

# 18 January 2008 at 11:04 pm

Xtralicious (author) said:

DK: Thanks. I need all the best wishes I can have.

starmist:Ya… I need comfort… come gib me more hugs and sayangs.

Shelly:Yeah… you of all peeps should know how much courage it took. Thanks for being there for me.

fitti: Hey you know just what I am thinking.. Was just playing with Shelly’s baby Joshie and thinking how cute he is and how much I wanted to have a third one… Sigh. Thanks for your well wishes and encouragement babe.

Au Thanks! LOL about taitai-dom. I feel connected in a way too, esp when you share about your sis. This is what I lvoe about blogging. Strangers can become friends and connect in a most unexpected manner.

# 19 January 2008 at 3:36 am